My life was a smooth highway and I often complained, “so boring, will there ever be a turn in this long route, why is it so straight?” Little did I know then, that the Almighty was listening with a whole lot of intent. Even before I could realize, life took a whole new U-turn and ever since I am going in circles. My head spins with surprises but I can’t complain. After all I asked for it.
It began with my physical transformation, first. From a fatso I became the sexy babe, people had no hesitation in labeling me as “hot”. Oops, too much to handle for a girl who couldn’t manage to make even a head turn in her prime. To a thirty plus woman flooded with compliments who don’t look her age. Come on, I exercised and followed strict diet schedule. Nobody noticed the hard work?
Second, came a jolt in my relationship status. I became single, sooner. And I would have enjoyed the singledom, only if I was available. I just didn’t know how to be available, call me what you may but all the attention was not my cup of tea. I succumbed to the pressure and made a wrong choice. This turning point became the steepest and I am back to square. I have no regrets though because I tried. So what if I failed, but it is my life and I am allowed to make mistakes. Can’t I?
Age hasn’t mellowed down my spirits. I would still like to dance, hang out with friends, be in a relationship and everything that the younger lot eyes for. Aren’t failures allowed to live life? Do I have to perish like the rest; lonely, sad, depressed and suicidal. So what if I am not someone’s wife, someone’s mother, someone’s daughter-in-law blah blah. I am still that daddy’s girl who loves pink, loves Cadbury’s, mushy romantic movies and dying to get a bouquet of red roses. Being on the wrong side of age can’t change my gender, can it?
I never started with the intention of breaking the standards but life just bumped into series of accidents which broke set patterns. I tried and failed. So be it. Does it mean I lead a dream-less life?
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